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:)  Well, I'm sick as hell and feeling like shit, but... I'm so very happy, and have the best boyfriend in the world. He came over last night because he rented Ed Wood since I've never seen it, and he bought me the Special Edition of Nightmare before Christmas!!  It's my birthday gift, and while it is a month and a bit late, I still love him for the thought :) And if anyone hasn't seen it or rented it, it's well worth it just to see "Vincent", Tim Burton's first stop-animation film that was labelled too macabre for a child's film.  It's fantastic.  IO cherish it so much!!  Yay happy time!!

It is a sad day when you've become the things you hate. And no one to lament to. Because the admission of these things will only amplify your own self-hatred. It is a sad, sad day.

Newest realization: I need a weekend off from the boyfriend.  I'm feeling frustrated and unattractive with him lately - and it doesn't help that tonight and lastnight he had some "problems".  It may just be that he's off his meds and his body is adjusting.  He claims it isn't that he's not sexually attracted to me, but try convincing me of that when there's nothing happening even though we both try.   Sigh.  So, he said he's going to call me tomorrow, and I'm thinking about making up some excuse of tiredness, or sister-bonding time.  I won't see him Saturday since he's going to visit his mom, and Sunday I'm visiting my Grandma.  Hopefully by